2018 12 28
More distributing of Laugh Fest Fliers downtown Grand Rapids.
Raining. At times a downpour! Between the umbrella and the hat I stayed dry from my head to my waist. But it was blowing a lot so from my waist down I got soaked. HOWEVER I had planned ahead and wore knee boots so my feet and lower legs stayed dry. My exposed knees were dry too but when I went indoors I noticed I was dripping from my skirt. It is pleather, vinyl in real words. It acted like a secondary umbrella keeping my knees dry. But as I walked indoors I dripped off my pleather umbrella. HA! Fashion FINALLY meets function!
So that all happened with another blazer. Red and black houndstooth coarse weave black and red with three big black buttons.
When driving down Michigan Avenue I was trying to go past a Goodwill when —— SURPRISE —— the car took over, jerked the steering wheel away from me, and took me, as I doth protested too much, in to the parking lot.
Sitting there in the car I decided that maybe I had better succumb to forces beyond my control and go in to the Goodwill store. I could always resist the forces beyond my control by refusing to buy. Valiantly I held my ground and thereby only bought three items. Yes it may seem like I gave in but let me tell you it was a struggle of shopaholic proportions!
I found a really fabulous heavy weight fabric bodycon stretchy to-die-for dress with a cutout neckline crisscrossed with straps. Fits like a glove, moves with me like a glove too!
AND a cute brown/black mini houndstooth mini pleat hem skirt.
And, OMG, this blazer. Which fits perfectly.
So I bought all three for the whopping sum of $13.00.
Yes I gave in to forces beyond my control.
I liked the blazer so much I used the store fitting room to change, with their permission, and wore the blazer out.
So yes I already have too much, yes I don’t need anything more. BUT there are so many different styles, skirts, dresses, so many fabrics, colors. So many possible outfit combinations?
How Can Anyone Resist?
As I was delivering the fliers to the offices, a whole lot of women and one or two guys complimented me. The guys don’t have a clue how much work this is. But the ladies do. And it is THEIR compliments that mean so much. When they tell me how nice I look or how nice my outfit goes together, something like that. I take that as a professional artist complimenting an amateur artist. Really validating.
And also, men or women, in a non bar/club environment, when I am out in the general public, I get the impression that when they say something nice, compliment me, that it is really more them saying that they accept my nonconforming and wish to express it in some polite way. In the bar/club environment there are always some, not all, some, usually guys, who think that a compliment is the first step to what they want.
isn’t that I am some beauty queen or fooling anyone – maybe from thirty
feet away I might, but I am not fooling myself. I know what I am and
what I want to be and that is my wife’s best friend with benefits.
But maybe, maybe, by being out there, not looking like a stripper, not doing the minimum, but putting some effort in to it, maybe by honing my presentation, maybe I can give them something easier to compliment, something maybe believable. Then they can say something nice and maybe it is a way to say they accept me, accept what I am doing, my non conformity, and maybe I might have opened a door just a teeny bit more.
And for the woman in the lobby that sneered at me and made an unpleasant sound as I walked by? Well there has to be some kind of a base level to measure from. A starting point where the work began. I don’t care how she feels, her ignorance, her needing replications of herself. I care that maybe fifty other people that day said something nice to me.
The numbers of supporting people are looking better and no matter how you look at it, my being out there is having an effect.
Who would ever guess that having
really is more than just that?
BTW I figured out how to add a photo where I want it in the text. This is a new program provided by the web host. This new program is clunky compared to the previous version. As I use it maybe I can get proficient enough to get back to where I was. “upgrade” HA!